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Friday, 11 November 2005

  • Currently Listening
    The Burdens of Being Upright
    By Tracy Bonham
    Mother, Mother
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    Wow the time always flies when I'm busy, and I never think to write on here. Anyhow, I'm feeling rather behind, but not completely overwhelmed like I've felt in the past. I have been going to a lot more club meetings and WE WON NO ON 1!!!! That was like an exploding spermnog in my brain. Seriously. I'm going to see the Laramie Project at the Penobscot Theatre company this saturday and it's free, so that's fucking awesome. Also, Tracy Bonham is fucking awesome. It's taken me 9 years to remember who sang that song I loved so much, and it is her... so she gets the cool artist of the universe award. I can't believe it's late in the semester already... where has the time gone? I feel a strange happiness, yet I have a lot to do, so I will go work on that now. I'm making an effort to be the person I want to be... it's great.

Friday, 28 October 2005

  • Currently Listening
    Hypnotize
    By System of a Down
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    Do I live too much in the past? Do I try to put people in boxes? Do I shut people out now because they are not what I have recieved in the past? Is it wrong to expect almost unconditional friendship? How will my life be if I do X, Y, Z? What are my responsibilities to my friends? What are my responsibilities to myself? School? Family? Work? Why does punk music make me feel like everything is ok again? Why did I drink yesterday? I don't drink. Where did this week go? I think I slept all week? Do I feel lonely because I am only up at night and the world is up during the day? Why am I a fuckup? Why do I simply accept that I am a fuckup instead of changing? Does my dad think about these same questions? Does anybody really care? What would my mom do if...? Who do I have, and in what sense? Will I lose those people if I do, X, Y, Z? Why does everyone else have life figured out more than I do? Do I just want to be a housewife? Is that revolutionary? What is revolutionary that is within my means? Why do people need money? Why don't I have my license? If I had my license would it make life any different? Where will I get the energy? Am I full of excuses? Am I too pushy? Did my friends all just love me because I MADE them love me? Were they nice to avoid guilt trips? Is society so fucked that nobody will respect or care about a woman who takes up more space in the world than a man? Why do I ask so many questions? Is there anyone who can answer them? Why am I so ashamed/unhappy/unmotivated? How do I fix this? Do I have to fix everything at once to fix anything satisfactorily? What do I have to do to be happy? I'm not supposed to regret anything. It's all part of who I am, it's all part of who I am, it's just me, it's all me. Hate. Me.

Wednesday, 12 October 2005

Friday, 30 September 2005

  • Currently Listening
    Singing in the Rain
    By Cliff "Ukulele Ike" Edwards
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    Your Taste in Music:

    90's Alternative: Highest Influence
    Alternative Rock: Highest Influence
    Punk: Highest Influence
    Ska: Highest Influence
    80's Alternative: High Influence
    90's Pop: High Influence
    Adult Alternative: High Influence
    80's Pop: Medium Influence
    90's Rock: Medium Influence
    Classic Rock: Medium Influence
    90's R&B: Low Influence
    Dance: Low Influence
    Heavy Metal: Low Influence
    Old School Hip Hop: Low Influence
    Progressive Rock: Low Influence
    R&B: Low Influence

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    • Name: Nikita
    • Location: Maine, United States
    • Birthday: 8/21/1986
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 12/2/2004

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